as i mentioned yesterday, last week was rough. a migraine took me out tuesday night that kept me out of the office wednesday, and i didn't wake-up headache free until saturday morning. as my coworkers repeatedly told me on thursday, "i can still see it in your eyes." it was the perfect summation of how i was feeling. that physical beatdown allowed an emotional one to creep in. it's the end of winter (season changes are always a struggle). work is extremely stressful right now and will continue to be so through april. i spent the better part of the week a little glum inside, trying to fight off a bout of nostalgia, of all things.
and it was the strangest. i couldn't stop thinking about this past holiday season. and that little trip to florida i took with c in february. i was longing for the past and clinging to those wonderful memories rather than looking forward. sure, some of that is the work and crap weather, but i was really getting mad at myself for being so stuck. so i took the weekend to work on clearing my head. and i'm getting there.
and i have plenty to look forward to in the coming weeks, months, years. i know that. life is beautiful.
do you ever get stuck like this?!
xo. di.
do you ever get stuck like this?!
xo. di.
I know exactly what you're talking about. I'm stressed at work, too, with the big state tests for my students coming up. It really does have an affect on every other part of your life. It's a struggle for me not to look back on fun times in my past (ie: trips last summer, etc) and still realize that I have plenty of happy times ahead. Hang in there, doll.
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard when you aren't feeling well and the near future is full of work... take care of yourself and take it a day at a time. Thanks for the honest post! We all have tough days/weeks/months :)
ReplyDeletethis post is so well-timed for me ;) so glad to hear you're feeling better and everything IS going to be amazing!! xo
ReplyDeleteI think I've pretty much lived in this state for the last 2 years while I've been working full-time (and then in a new job) and in grad school. It's not a fun headspace, but the good news is that we will get out of it eventually and things DO get better. Keep focusing on the lovely things and the good times to come! And, I don't know, maybe plan a trip to fun-filled Houston, TX so you have something to look forward to. =)
ReplyDeleteerin - exactly! glad i'm not alone. hope the tests go well
ReplyDeletemelissa - thanks love, very sweet of you
ashley - i'm so glad it meant something to you
KiTx - oh i'm so sorry. things definitely do get better. best wishes to you!